the woe of nikiolas

ok so like

if i was languid and/or evasive, and/or withdrawn

it is because it may or may not be awkward

and i have no skills about how to talk to womons

and i feel awkward because i never had a womon for a friend to talk to

and i want to hang out and some such

because it is fun

but like 

i am afraid to ask

and like ask for her fone number and things

because it sound like i hitting on her

but like

i not

except i sort of 

but i not

actually

and like i had bad experiences with womons that think i was hitting on them

like

they hate me

now

and like

they were really nice to me before

and now they hate me

but like

i may one day

in the future

but i probably wont